hey man, what's up. just wanted to let you know that i dont hold any of what you said about me that nigh tagainst you, i know we all say things that we dont mean when we're upset. i just hope you didnt mean them, cuz that was some of the most hurtful things any one ever said to me. when to comes to family, you guys are pretty nuch all i have, and i know that ive done you very wrong in the past, but please belive me when i say that i will live with that for the rest of my life. i am very sorry that i did what i did, but i cant do anything to take it back.  and your probably right, i do need to be on meds for my bipolar, but its kinda hard when yopu dont have insurance, im sure you understand. i got a job now, so im not a complete loser. im workin as a bartender so i hope to make pretty good money until i leave for flight school in april. that is if i can find a freakin loan that will let my dad co-sign, which he said he would be happy to do, so we'll see i guess. anyways i hope this doesnt come between us, cuz youre more important than this damn game. i wish i had never started in the first plce. i really dont even  want to start this clan, but everyone thinks i cant do it, so my pride is taking over, jusat to prove them wrong i guess. maybe i am stubborn. who knows? write back man, even if just to tell me to fuck off.